Hi Kozo: Thank you for sharing. In the spirit of holding the space together ... it gets that much richer every time one of ours opens up. I have read and thought of about collected conscience - the one that we all are, the conscience that makes us all one. It is always healing, soothing, nurturing, growing ... that healing energy/synergy/being is us - every one of us. The trying moments of physical ailments, or emotions, or worries, or fear ... can block that healing energy inside of us. I know that has been the case with me so many times. How inspiring to see your true inner core shining so brightly even with your health condition. Smiles and Gratitude, Deven